Ok, it's SUNDAY. I wake up in hubbub feeling within. Today, I was calling my little brother and He's talking bout many things *especially my blues room*
HOME (can I go home now?) ......... :(
Yup, so sadly sunday... and then I remember 'bout a someone promise. He'll bring me far away from here..
But I waiting, 1 hour, 2 hour, 3 hour, finally 4 hour. He didn't call me. (˘﹏˘)
*Did you know it's so wasting my time and make today be so worst ???
I try to think something I didn't understand. But, I failed. So I'm going under to the hubbub feeling.
Melow song enhance my suffering. Home... I just wanna go home now.... :(
I giving up to this feeling, so I take a bath and let the shower flushing my head during 1 hour. But, it didn't finishing my hubbub. *Eeerrrrrrr....so bad*
So, I try to calling and tell him 'bout this (ayolah, aku hanya perlu teman bicara). But, He didn't respect. OK. PERFECT.
Errrrr, I didn't know what I must doing to this feeling. So harry.
"I know you’re somewhere out there, Somewhere far away……"After all, he's calling me (I calling back him). Cause I already queasy situation, I just told him to go and I don't care at all. (Ok, I know it's the worst "I'm" that I've ever be.. I just missing him, exactly) and We fall out along 2 hours.
♫ ♫ " Aku tak pernah minta untuk semua waktumu, Aku tak pernah minta kau beri smua yang engkau punya... Yang aku ingin hanya pengertianmu, untuk sedikit saja pahami maksudku.. Yang aku ingin hanyalah agar kau mau, Sekedar........ mengerti aku ......." ♫ ♫ ♫
"At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself.. Try to get to you, In hopes you're on the other side, Talking to me too. (Or am I a fool?)"
I think Chocolate Ice Cream is the best idea at situation like this, So I told him, and he'll pike me up. Ok, now here we goes......Beforehand, We wanna have a lunch. Rumah Makan Padang Murah Meriah.
" ♪ ♪ then i'm shattered by the shadows of your eyes, knowing you're still here by my side... ♪ ♪
(I sing this song along way).
He was too cold, and it's hurting me.. I know, I still in stanger bearing. I just try to make him happy, and told him "I'm Fine" in gesture within. I Failed, again and again. I Giving up, it was enough. So. I just can hold him along way, Savor the last day that I've....
Along the way home, I remember his word.. someday he was talk to me “Segala sesuatu itu ada pada tempatnya..". Everyone is independent in their own beliefs & ideas about things, so never expect a person to always see things YOUR way… I mustn't be selfish anymore, It hurt.
"Kehadiran itu bukan hanya secara nyata... Tapi bisa merasakan walaupun wujudnya sudah tidak ada, itu cukup". Life was never be so easy as it seems, no matter space and distance make it look so far, still i know you're still here by my side. It hurt.
"Percaya dengan Mempercayai itu berbeda. Mempercayai mempunyai makna lebih dalam akan suatu hal". The first step before anyone else in the world believes it is that YOU have to believe it. It hurt.
"Dewasa. sekarang bukan saatnya menjadi anak kecil". I'll try, It hurt.
Yaa, It's all of the meaning life today. Menerima Kritik dan Masukan adalah Cara untuk menjadi diri yg lebih baik. Semoga bisa menjadi lebih bijak dalam bersikap.
“Aku janji, hari ini yang terakhir… besok harus bisa BELAJAR dengan sebenar-benarnya BELAJAR…”
